Time to hunt

I am excited to leave for my elk hunt in a few days.  It's my first elk hunt ever so I'm nervous as well.  There is always great memories made on our hunting/camping trips especially when the kids are around.  A few years ago when we were deer hunting Ally wanted to sleep in our tent so she slept on my cot with me.  When we woke up in the morning it was really cold and she needed to go potty so she tells Uncle Tony to take her.  As soon as she lifter the covers and felt the cold she says NEVER MIND!  We were laughing so hard.  Never a dull moment with those guys.

Moments

Since my last post I have had a few of those "ah-haaaaa" moments.  Sometimes you just have to sit down, take a deep breath and say REALLY?!  I've learned that honesty and being trust worthy are traits that not everyone has.  I've had to learn who to trust and who not to trust and considering that I'm working in a new environment with all new people this can be tough.  Luckily I have met some pretty great people that I can't wait to get to know better.  I've learned that there s somethings that are completely and totally out of my control, and that's hard for me to be ok with.  I know what I have to do but it seems like my heart and my head are not communicating right now.  For some people the things I feel is difficult may be easy for them and things that are easy for me may be hard for them.  It's hard to find friends that are willing to accept your imperfections and love you no matter what.  I've learned that you can go for years not talking to a friend and finally get to reconnect (on facebook of course) and it's like we never lost touch.  She is there even though we are miles apart.  Thank you Chelsea!  Of course there are those friends that I wish we could just go back and make sure we never lost touch  Unfortunately it's not that easy and hopefully one day it will change.  Maybe it will change this weekend since it's my ten year reunion.  Wow ten years already! 
I read something today that really moved me so I thought I would share it with everyone.
Once there were two expectant mothers.
One carried and cared for you beneath her beating heart
She became your Birthmother.
The other carried the hope of you within her.
She became your Mom.
I can't wait for this process to be over and I can finally say I'm a mom.  Everyone always says that once you have a child your world changes and you have to make choices based on your child.  In our world this has been our way of thinking for the last four years.  The one missing piece to our puzzle is a child.  This whole process has been full of moments we will never forget.  Some good, some bad but in the end it has made us stronger.